blogging & marathon training

I am in the height of marathon training, logging 40+ miles a week and sleeping about 6 hours a night or less.  This makes me more sensitive and honestly, less rational.  (But the fact that I know that gives me some kind of rationality credit, right?)

Yesterday, in response to two negative anonymous comments made to my blog over the weekend, I made my blog private only to me.  This was intended to give me some time to consider what the commenter had said, and determine what kind of response I wanted to give. (I was able to determine this was a first time commenter and not a person who has previously anonymously commented.) Thanks for your texts/emails.  I am afraid that some of you thought I was blocking you specifically, for which I apologize. I value each of my readers and appreciate you taking the time to read and often comment on my blog.

Allow me to address the first negative comment.  Last week I had a post about journaling, and another about anger.  Many of you commented with your thoughts. I was happy to see that the topic was interesting to my readers, and glad to have your input and advice.  (Your feedback is the reason that blogging is more fun for me than journaling; because it helps me formulate and mold my opinions.)  I responded to all the comments that were made. To at least one of you, this seemed corrective. This was never my intention.  (I had read somewhere that responding to those that take the time to comment on your blog encourages more comments.  And I really enjoy having your comments!) I value and appreciate when you are willing to consider, comment and help me work through ideas.  I apologize if it seemed otherwise.

In response to the other comment about me being "hypocritical and self-centered" let me say this.  After looking at a few of my posts with that filter, I agree that most of what I have to say is very one sided, and self-centered.  However, the title of my blog is Living with JMT and Gdog.  I believe this doesn't simply imply, it states, this blog will be about my life, my experiences and my family (specifically Jocelyn, Marissa, Tiffany and Gavin).  While I hope that the things I choose to blog about will be things that resonate with some of you, it is basically about me.  My blog is about how I see the world as a forty-year-old person, understanding my testimony of Jesus Christ and his gospel, and enduring, enjoying, and celebrating my life, husband and my kids. 

I don't share all of the things from my blog on Facebook, Twitter or in my church calling.  Not because I am trying to hide anything, but simply because I don't think it is the correct forum. (I think my Facebook friends appreciate me not having 2 paragraph status updates to read.  If they want more info--or to know more about me, they can click the link to my blog and come over and read it.)  I am very willing to talk with someone one-on-one and discuss my blog ideas and posts.

I feel abundantly blessed in my life. For the most part, I try to be upbeat, positive and happy, but there are posts, just as there are days, that I don't feel that way. Please do not equate me being positive with me feeling as though I am perfect.  I am simply me,  A regular girl, who is impatient and frustrating, inquisitive, competitive, repentant, and still learning. My goal is not to be perfect, but to try to be a little better each day.

So I am going to continue blogging about me. I would like your comments if you have something constructive to say, even when you disagree with me.  However, you will need to attach your name to your comment, as I am eliminating the ability to comment anonymously.